Today was rehearsal for the kids’ Christmas program at church. I am looking forward to the show tomorrow!

PS- Baby E refuses to be involved. Oh well, there’s always next year!

I acknowledge that my children have had a difficult few weeks as Tim and I have been dealing with and processing what happened. And I know that in the evenings I am so overtired and not good company for the kids. Sometimes it just feels like we are going through the motions.

This evening I wanted to provide the kids with a little extra special something to cheer us up, so I borrowed some movies, picked up some popcorn and ordered pizza. Then we curled up on the couch and watched “Toy Story” while we ate. After the movie we went upstairs to get ready for bed. I put Baby E in his crib and then the bid kids and I snuck back downstairs with their pillows and blankets and started watching “Finding Nemo.” I just turned it off and I am letting them camp out on the living room floor until daddy gets home and carries them upstairs. At the moment, I am pretty sure that C is asleep, but Big E is tossing and turning as he lays there. The room is being lit by this computer screen and the Christmas tree, and everything seems so peaceful. The perfect ending to a pretty wonderful evening. 🙂

It was but nine years ago that we started this journey, naive of the adventure set before us. Little could we anticipate the blessings and heartaches that we would encounter. Even less did we comprehend how the accumulation of many small moments would mold and shape us. The lines between us have blurred, the distinctiveness of whom we each are has been made fuzzy. You are the part of me that keeps my feet on the ground and talks me down from tall ledges. I am the part of you that pushes you past your insecurities.

You are my companion, my confidant, my friend. And I love you.