Tim and the kids are away this weekend, but I did receive this picture earlier, so I’m pretty sure they are having a great time. In the meantime I’m keeping myself busy editing and watching movies until way too late in the evening.

The tiniest little deer took up residence next to our basement stairs this afternoon. It couldn’t have been more than a week old. After sitting motionless watching us, it jumped up on wobbly legs, bounced off the house and took off across the yard. It met up with its mother across the street.

The only time I ever heard Hazel’s heartbeat was a day forever etched into my memory and carved onto my heart – The day she died. Had we not lost her, today she would have been two.

I haven’t put much time in the blog lately, and I think this is part of the reason why. This day has been creeping up on me for weeks now.

Though I never met her, I miss her terribly. I wish I had gotten to hold her, to have stared into her eyes and kissed her forehead. I would have told her how loved she was and how much we had prayed to have her. But I didn’t get to do those things because she didn’t make it.

At least I heard her heartbeat. I bore witness to her life. I had the privilege to carry her, be it ever so briefly. I was her mom and she was my girl, and I am a better woman and mother because of her.

God is so unbelievably good.

Happy Should-Have-Been Birthday, Sweet Girl. I love you.

I’m not sure if it was the overcast skies or the late nights and long hours in the car, but today I was pretty much useless. I wandered around the house from one half finished task to another. I took a nap. I went to the grocery store. I cooked dinner. But I’m just kind of blah. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel like writing but tonight I just want sleep.

Another long day of traveling in the books. Glad to be home and sleeping in our own beds.

Road trip with our youngest!!!

It appears my foray into the life of a soccer mom has drawn to a close, at least for now. Today was the last day of soccer for the kids. Baby E gave up playing weeks ago and Big E was visiting his grandparents, so C was our only kid on the field and she spent the entire time as goalie. I was surprised when she volunteered weeks ago to try that position, but she loved it and the coach has been letting her be goalie quite a bit. It’s been fun to watch her get more confident and skilled as the weeks passed.

She did great today and you could tell she was having fun.

Perhaps being a soccer mom isn’t quite so bad!