01-08-19 Dinos

One of the things that I love about walking around the shop as of late are the surprises our kids leave us. It isn’t unusual to see Captain America hanging out on a dolly, or Barbie chilling in the forklift. My favorite is probably the infestation of dinosaurs that are slowly taking over the warehouse. 😂

01-07-19 Branching Out!

My life is random. One day I’m editing videos. The next I’m homeschooling my kids. Then I’m hanging at the hospital with my dad or spending my day sanding.

Today I got to spend the entire day with my best guy on a job site in the city. Plus I got to wear a hard hat and a bright yellow vest. Definitely outside my comfort zone, but I still had fun!

01-06-19 Progress

I’ve been to visit my father every single day he has been in the hospital save one. When you see someone every single day, it’s hard to measure their progress unless you take a step back and remember where they came from. Today as I sat eating lunch with my dad, I reflected over the past several weeks. If you had asked me two weeks ago about him, I probably would have mumbled through tears that I didn’t think he’d be coming home. But that was then and this is now. He has made tremendous progress and I think he only has to hit a couple more milestones before they will discharge him… I can’t tell you how excited that makes me, as once again we are seeing tangible answers to prayer!

I promised Tim I would go on a job site tomorrow morning with him. I’m not really sure what I’ve signed myself up for, except that we will be leaving the house at 5:30 am, and that sounds horrible, so good night!

01-05-19 Baby E and his favorite girl

Baby E has a favorite person outside of our immediate family, and that is his cousin Bekah. She was born three months after him, and since we lived three doors down from them for a few years, they grew up together. He always tells me that Miss Bekah is his girl.

He got very excited to learn that his cousins were coming to visit and he would get a whole day of Bekah time. My favorite moment was when I walked into the classroom and found them quietly sitting on the chair, sharing a book. ❤️❤️

01-04-19 Late Night

It’s almost one in the morning and I just got home. I spent half the day at the hospital and the other half at the shop sanding a ton of panels. I’m already sore, so I can only imagine how I’ll feel in the morning!

Sorry, not much of a post tonight. Way too tired!

01-03-19 The Night We Screamed

I know I already posted tonight, but I forgot this…

The past few weeks have been difficult. With much of my time being spent at the hospital, I haven’t had much time with my kids. I decided to take the day off today so I could spend it with them. By this evening, I could tell we all had a lot of pent up energy.

As we sat around the counter, I told them to be prepared for me to scream. I then opened my mouth and shouted at the top of my lungs, “I love you guys!!!” The kids started laughing and they each took turns shouting the same phrase. Then we shouted it together. We screamed so much and for so long that our throats hurt. After weeks of sadness and quiet, the screaming was the release we needed.

We spent the next hour running around and playing. We pretended we were invisible and we attacked each other. We laughed, we shouted, we wore each other out. It was perfect and I know the kids enjoyed it!

Sometimes you just need to scream.

01-03-19 Back To School!

For the first time in nearly three weeks I did not go to the hospital. My mom and sister were going, so I decided today was a good day to start back with school. It took me a few minutes to decipher where we had left off, but we pulled it together and got the work done! We even squeezed in a few extra learning moments in there too, which was great!

The kids’ favorite part of the day was when we measured each other’s height using Unifix cubes. In case you were wondering, Baby E comes in at 53 cubes. Big E is 65 cubes tall and C is 69. I came in at a whopping 83 cubes.

Thank you again for your prayers for our family. Like I’ve said before, Dad’s progress is slow, but it is progress so I am grateful for that. ❤️❤️

01-01-19 The Cart

There is a library cart right outside my father’s hospital room. It’s the only time I have seen one in our many visits to hospitals over the past several months. On carts like these, you can be guaranteed to find the usual suspects- John Grisham, James Patterson, Danielle Steele, Nicholas Sparks, etc. And this cart is no different. I ran my finger down the spines of the books, hoping to find something to pique my interest when I landed on a book called The Road. I picked it up and carried it back to the room. My father does a lot of sleeping, so during his downtime I read. Three days ago I picked up that book. By this afternoon, I was almost finished so I stuck it in my purse to complete it this evening, which I did. If you ever get a chance to read it, it’s good. It’s not happy, not at all, but it’s good. Tomorrow I’ll return it to the cart and perhaps leave a few of my own for someone else to discover!

Thank you for your continued prayers. My father seems to be a little better each day, but he still has a lot of progress to make. We aren’t really sure what the future looks like and that’s scary, but we are trusting God to continue to carry us through this.

12-31-18 Four Years

“As we discussed, we found lesions on his liver when we did the CT scan,” the doctor said bluntly as he talked with us beside my father’s hospital bed. “We need to check these out and make sure they aren’t cancer which is why we have ordered the MRI. We are just waiting for a spot to open up in their schedule.”

My heart started racing. His liver?? Lesions? More cancer??

Wait? What CT scan? We’ve been here everyday for two weeks and no one mentioned a CT scan. What’s going on?!

The doctor turned away from us and started tapping on the keyboard of the room’s computer. Using the mouse he scrolled down my father’s chart.

“Oh, I’m so sorry,” he hurriedly spoke. “I was thinking of a different patient. It’s not him. There are no lesions on his liver.”

A few more words and he walked out of the room, leaving my body coarsing with adrenaline over the unexpected mistake. I quickly recovered and turned to my dad, thankful for his continued progress, but feeling sad for the unknown patient.

Today is New Year’s Eve. For four years I have met you here every single night, but this past year has been particularly challenging. From quitting my job, through our big move, homeschooling, and this difficult journey with my father, you have been a source of encouragement to me and my family. You have sent us notes, called us, prayed with and for us, made us meals, watched our kids, and reminded us the importance of community and of the body of Christ, and for that we are incredibly grateful, so thank you!

See you in 2019

Sleeping over with the cousins!!!