I’m not adaptable. I’m not a roll with the punches kind of girl. I like to know that everything is in place before I take a step in any direction. I want all the i’s dotted and the t’s crossed. I don’t like being caught off guard. I value a good back up plan.
With that said, the last few months of my life have been anything but predictable. Just when I think all my ducks are in a row, something happens to throw it all into chaos. Well, chaos is probably too strong of a word, so I’ll stick with uncertainty.
But the crazy thing is, the more unpredictable my life has gotten, the less internal chaos I have felt, the calmer I have become. I think it stems from thinking that I can control certain things, and coming to the eventual realization that so much is out of my control, (even the things I thought I had a handle on.)
So each day is a lesson in being flexible. I don’t need all the answers of how and when, I just need to trust that the One who has those answers is working, irregardless of what I can see. 🙂